tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16268336.post115798926265821201..comments2023-10-07T17:28:01.937+02:00Comments on BiPolar Etcetera: Hankering after youthBiPolar Guyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07381711074498504990noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16268336.post-1158421646953890392006-09-16T17:47:00.000+02:002006-09-16T17:47:00.000+02:00I would go back to being 18, before I met my husba...I would go back to being 18, before I met my husband. I didn't get to live before I got married. Not that it was a bad thing, but now I'm always wondering what-ifsMaggshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01884353212360311004noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16268336.post-1158059667654777302006-09-12T13:14:00.000+02:002006-09-12T13:14:00.000+02:00I really don't get depressed. And the age 30 wasn...I really don't get depressed. And the age 30 wasn't a big deal. I'll be 38 in December and I'd have to say I'm a bit befuddled by that: where did the time go. I thought I'd have done so much more with my life (what, specifically, my grandiose-thinking mind won't say, but I feel somewhere I should've been famous, or perhaps infamous). However, I also was positive as a teen that I wouldn't live past 30. <BR/><BR/>But I don't look at it like I'm old. And as for the teens: I'm like raine. I prefer much more the person I am now, the environment I have now: yes, I struggle with bipolar, but I feel more loved, and I'm more capable of love than ever as a young person.bp_hockey_chickhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09890066758988063802noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16268336.post-1158017308632602022006-09-12T01:28:00.000+02:002006-09-12T01:28:00.000+02:00I think exactly opposite. Even tho my illness hit ...I think exactly opposite. Even tho my illness hit in my 30's I wouldn't go back to childhood or teen years for anything. Even tho I am an unstabilized bi-polar and suffer with it I would not for minute consider going back. Even tho I am 43 and a grandmother now and live on a pittance. NO way NO how. In spite of this illness and all of its manifestations I am calmmer in mind and soul that I ever been. Yes I am poorer. Yes I am more ill. Yes my body is not what it used to be. BUT I do not remeber youth so fondly........I did not have the coping skills I have now or the wisdom I have now to deal with life. I think I have the better deal now.Rainehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17088907661394233572noreply@blogger.com