The BiPolar Lot in Life

I took a shower midday yesterday and managed to resurrect myself sufficiently to drag my body down to the office and answer some urgent emails. Showers, I have found, are one of the very best short-term solutions to wash away the blues.

Things just got on top of me yesterday. Besides the neverending BiPolar to contend with, I presently have the other strains of finances and family issues. The finance problem (as I've said in many posts) is simple: to much debt and monthly incoming money not covering monthly outgoing money.

The family issues are a little more complicated. The "Honeymoon" period for both Mrs M & I, and Miss L, is drawing to an end. And, given the terrible events of Miss L's short life, we always knew that she would have huge underlying issues. Well they're starting to come out now. Mainly discipline issues. Having always felt guilty towards her I've been lax on discipline (what discipline?) Whereas Mrs M, as much as she loves Miss L (and she DOES) believes, probably rightly, that we need to establish some boundaries. So not only are there problems directly with Miss L, there is now a growing and potentially problematic dynamic developing between Mrs M and I. Me, I'm trapped in the middle.

And at times I feel like I just can't cope.

But this, I suppose, is the BiPolar's lot in life. BiPolars, I would argue, are more likely to have family issues than non-BiPolars. The moodswings add a whole new pressure to everybody and strained relationships go with the territory.

Same with finances. There's nothing like a week or 2 of hardcore depression to knock your income earning ability sideways. Couple this with the odd manic spending spree and you've got a recipe for disaster. In rare exceptions BiPolars can do well financially, but only when they have a long period of sustained and low-key hypomania. Impossible when you've been rapid-cycling like I have for the past year.

Guess we just gotta make the most of it.