the disordered life of a BiPolar creative with underlying delusions of grandeur. REALTIME.
- there are no answers. only choices -
"Bipolar disorder (previously known as manic depression) is a psychiatric diagnostic category describing a class of mood disorders in which the person experiences clinical depression and/or mania, hypomania, and/or mixed states. The disorder can cause great distress among those afflicted and those living with them. Left untreated, bipolar disorder can be a disabling condition, with a high risk of death through suicide."
"The difference between bipolar disorder and unipolar disorder (also called major depression) is that bipolar disorder involves both elevated and depressive mood states. The duration and intensity of mood states varies widely among people with BiPolar disorder. Fluctuating from one mood state to the next is called "cycling". Mood swings can cause impairment or improved functioning depending on their direction (up or down) and severity (mild to severe). There can be changes in one's energy level, sleep pattern, activity level, social rhythms and cognitive functioning. Some people with Bipolar disorder may have difficulty functioning during these times."
- Wikipedia.org
I cannot hear the audio blog as there is no speakers here. So this might be on a completely different track so here goes anyway.
ReplyDeleteCan someone please tell me the difference between unhappiness (normal people) and depression (bipolar)? Do the two feed of each other or are the totally independent?
The reason I asked is that I became angry yesterday. It seems to be the tone for the past week on this blog. I started to shout at myself, "Come on your f***er" as I struggled with on my bicycle up another steep gradient.It reminded my of the times I have been angry in the past. The type of anger that is converted into determination and focus.
Why can't BiPolar's be angry with themselves? Don't accept the unhappines/depression. Shout at themselves. Is it better just to accept the mood disorder and lie at the side of the road and watch the sunset? Sorry for the rant but maybe that is part of my disorder too?
I find that whenever I try to explain bipolar disorder to "normal" people, I can't help but describe it in ways that they would understand. Like feeling really crappy means depression for bipolars but could just be a mood dip for non-consumers. I don't mention the psychosis (that's where we differ) but I wholeheartedly feel that most of what bipolars experience is part of the average person's experience also.
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