Dear Blog...

I'm not sure what's happening to me at the moment. Can you tell me O Blog? You've been in my life now every day for 7 months. Every day, early in the morning, we rendezvous, two trusted old friends.

But things are changing at the moment. Lots of changes. I'm finding it an effort to keep up our daily appointment. Not that I've got anything against you or anything, it's just like the need is no longer there.

Why? Is it the meditation? Am I approaching some kind of contentment level where I'm just happy to live from moment to moment, let things be, no need to comment? And if this is so, is it a good thing?

Am I slipping into a deep depression that I've failed to recognise? I don't think so, but I cannot deny that any urge to express myself, whether through concrete poetry, my next book, or even you O Blog, has practically dried up. But on the other hand some things have picked up. I'm walking more on the beach. I've been putting longer and better quality hours into my business. I'm getting really involved in Miss L's life.

But why am I needing so much sleep at the moment? Right now there's nothing I'm looking more forward to than sleep. Just to curl up, zone out, sink into the soft mattress.

What's going on? Is this just a patch that will blow over in a few days? Or is it one of those major paradigm shifts that I keep having every couple of years? And if it is a paradigm shift - where to now? Which way the new goal posts? Will there even be goal posts? What will I take with, what will I leave behind? Will I leave you behind? Or are you leaving me behind?

If you have any answers O Blog, any little explanation for what's going on - I'm all ears...

Yours BPG