Despite "despite"
Following hot on yesterday's post, I must confess that despite my best intentions I had a goddam awful day ("Got-a-Gun" territory)
What happened? I got to thinking about it and the only conclusion I could come up with is that I would rather lose a limb than lose my mind to severe depression. Don't get me wrong, I am not belitteling the pain and trauma of losing a limb for one second. I'm just saying that if you lose a limb and have still got a positive healthy mind, you can still acheive a shit load (including entering the Diasbled Olympics). Mind over matter, remember.
Meanwhile you can take a perfectly healthy body, attach to it a chronically depressed mind, and, if you're like me, you're not going to be going anywhere that entails getting out of bed.
What do you guys think? Lose a limb or lose your mind to that dispicable, foul, evil creature that we call depression?
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At least I'm better today.
Honestly I would rather lose a limb or a sense (Hell my eyesight is already more than half gone). I don't mean that lightly either, as an artist (painter and cartoonist) my hands (And the arms they are attached to) and senses are precious to me (Not that they are any less so to any one else) Yet still I would even give up my creative abilities just to have a stable, reasonable and undepressed mind. To be free of the consequences this goddamn disorder shoves into my life would be worth it.
ReplyDeletea limb- anything but depression or my eyesight- I ahve to be able to read and I dont think the library has much braille stuff, however I must qualify it- I would exhange the limb only if I never had to experience depression again. I wouldnt exchange it to get out of just a single episode
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