Struggling to work
My work ethic was going really well for 2007, until about last week. Suddenly I'm really struggling to do any work (work-proper I'm talking about).
OK, so I'll always have the odd day (or even 2) here and there where I'm just too dang depressed to work. But this time it's not like that. Its been 8 days already.
And neither am I really depressed. I am throwing myself into my non-work activities with a throbbing passion. Flickr, for example, has been the discovery of my life. I haven't felt such passion for a hobby in years. I'm also finding so many other cool new web 2.0 sites. Places where you can hang out and spend plenty fun time.
Problem is: it makes the real work less and less fun. I really took a wrong turn all those years back when I went into the financial world. I tried to get out of it a few times the past 5 years, but nothing really took off (in a salary generating way I mean). So I've been forced to get back into the fckn sterile world of number-crunching and marketing strategies. And when I get onto these creative streaks like I have this past fortnight, I find sitting at my desk loading debit orders and liasing with these fckn idiot SUITS via email, just too unbearable.
I guess it wouldn't be such a problem if I was working for a boss somewhere, and had no option BUT to work. But I'm my own boss. And all the cool internet stuff is only a click away, and ALWAYS BECKONING. And the newfound passion has just completely broken the dam walls of discipline that I was so carefully constructing.
WORK SUCKS
One of these days my boss is gonna get sacked...
“Self-discipline is an act of cultivation. It require you to connect today's actions to tomorrow's results. There's a season for sowing a season for reaping. Self-discipline helps you know which is which.”
ReplyDelete-Gary Ryan Blair
(Plucked of the web on one of my many hours spent Wilfing - http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/scotland/6540361.stm )
I could never be self-employed again. I need the external obligation in order to knuckle down and get something done. There are just too many other things I'd rather be doing; except of course for teaching which is still turning out to be a lot of fun.
ReplyDeleteI guess we really ARE on the same wavelength these days. :-/
ReplyDeletemaybe you should let Mrs. M be the boss..........
ReplyDeleteHey Bipolar, I´ve felt like that about work for the past 6 months! It sucks! Finally, the last couple of weeks, it´s become better and I´m getting some motivation back.
ReplyDeleteNice blog, by the way!